At the beginning of the year I like to think through some of my goals for the year. I don’t normally have it done and ready by January 1st, because who has had time to think about it over Christmas? And of course with a new baby this year, I’ve had even less time, but I still think it’s important so I’ve been trying (in the middle of the night) to think of what I want my year to look like. I have certain key words that I use to describe my photography style (Natural, Honest, Refined) and I wanted to see if I could come up with a word to describe what I want from my year. A word that will help me decide things (is this something that I want to focus on or not?) And the word that came to mind for me this year was “Enough”. As in:
I am enough.
I have enough.
I’ve had enough of wasting time on things that aren’t important and judging myself so harshly.
I’ve always desired to be the best at everything I do, but the reality is that I can’t. I cannot be THE best. That would be only one person out of the billions on earth. And I will probably never be that person at anything. And that is OK! It doesn’t mean I have to stop trying to do my best, but it does mean accepting that my best is good. It is enough. That when I give my all to something that is enough. I don’t need to beat myself up for not being more. I am enough.
In today’s society and with social media glorifying and only showing the highlights of everyone’s lives it’s easy to feel like I don’t have enough. I don’t have a big enough house, or travel enough, or whatever. But the fact is I do have enough. I have more than enough. I am really not lacking in anything, and I want to remember that and be content with what I have now. It doesn’t mean I won’t be working towards things, but it does mean that I don’t need to be constantly looking to the future. I can enjoy the moment, because this moment is enough. I have enough.
For some reason I realized that while I’ve spent many years not judging others for who they are/where they are in life, I haven’t extended the same kindness to myself. I judge myself so much harsher than I do anyone else. I am never good enough, my business is never successful enough, I am never as good a mom/wife/friend as someone else could be. And that is just nonsense. My business may not be like someone else’s but then we may not have the same goals in life. The same things might not be important to me. And that is ok. My husband and son do not think I am anything less than I should be so why do I? I want to spend my time on what is important (time WITH family and friends, not social media) and stop judging myself for the days I feel like I’m less than I wanted.
This doesn’t mean I’m not going to continue to work hard to make myself and my business better this year. It just means that I want to do it with kindness, understanding, relationships, and grace. No judgments and criticisms. I will be content with the journey, not only looking for the end goal. I will ENJOY THE JOURNEY 🙂
My boys who are why I do what I do and help me remember to stop and enjoy the journey 🙂
If you struggle making a list of goals for the year I really encourage you to think of a word that encompasses what you want to work on this year. If you do, let me know what it is in a comment below!